Showing posts with label brain. Show all posts
Showing posts with label brain. Show all posts

Tuesday, May 9, 2017

Pass the Chisel

“Fickle is the mind that rests here”… I’m currently carving this into my headboard.

Out of nowhere, in the middle of the long, long night, my squirrely brain turned on me. Anxiety chomped down on the old psyche and wouldn’t let up for hours.

Why, you may I ask?

See the fickle warning above.

Now, where did I leave that stupid chisel?

Until tomorrow…


Chloe

Thursday, August 25, 2016

The Brickyard

If boundaries were brick walls, I’d lose my frontal lobe to ramming.

And when that chunk of brain was laying on the ground all minced to gory pieces, I’d trample over its carcass trying to crash the next lobe in line into that same bloody bricked up spot.

Stupid?

Or brave?

Don’t ask me. I lost that answer to the brick a long time ago.

Until tomorrow…

Chloe

Post-note: Living with a mental illness is often all about boundaries, lines you simply can’t cross and remain happily sane… Twenty-five years inside and I’m still killing myself trying to bust out. 



Sunday, July 17, 2016

Prunish

Ten hours in a car.

Brain shriveled like a prune.

Enough said?

Until tomorrow…


Chloe

Sunday, May 10, 2015

A Rosabel by Any Other Name


The following is a tale of caution.

Yesterday, I sat down to work on The Hushing Days for the first time in over a week, gathered all my scribblings of notes and mountains of research around me and with great relief and a huge goofy grin upon my face took up the life story of Rosabel Starling again until…

*cue the beat of ominous silence*

Fifteen minutes in, I realized there is no Rosabel Starling in The Hushing Days.

Thankfully, there is a Lisabel Starling so I hadn’t suffered some kind of delusional break while traipsing with the buzzards up in the mountains (see yesterday’s post for those messy details). I hadn’t hallucinated a full-blown character out of nowhere. I had simply misremembered a name…

*strike up that dirge-like silent beat again*

The heroine’s name…

The heroine’s name of a novel I’ve been slaving over for the past five months….

The heroine’s name of a novel which has taken over a complete lobe of my brain and at least one chamber of my heart.

*cue the deep breaths*

I have since recovered from this shame. However, I present it to you as ugly proof of the dark side of vacations.

Holiday wisely, my friends.

Until tomorrow…

Chloe